What if God is still as real today as he was real in the Apostle Paul, who has become the most transparant and authentic incarnation of what he taught "Christ in us - the hope of Glory". The most Christlike person and influential Apostle that defined Christianity in scripture was without any doubt the apostle Paul. For a reality check I recommend that we look at the best of modern Christianity. There are the Mormon Apostles, good principled man, but lacking the Charisma of Paul, there are tele evangelists that got famous and rich - do they resemble Paul and Pauls Jesus ? And there are less known leaders that are extremely sacrificial and charismatic. Check them out on Video (click on pic).

After finding doubt that has morphed into a new certainty that Joseph is not THE MAN TO BE PRAISED and with a desire of Keeping the Faith where do we turn ? May I recommend Beyond Mormonism - the book - Read it online here ! Reviews here !

http://www.mazeministry.com/resources/books/beyondtext/aacontents.htm

Also of interest may be joining a group, such as http://www.lifeaftermormonism.net/

We never did, because it was not convenient some 20 years ago and online support was still in its infancy. We found the best way forward was to plunge straight into churches that where spiritually alive. And nowadays the internet has almost anything available that beyond all myth, mystique and magic, beyond all character flaws, corruption and deliberate deception, God is very real and alive in Christ, in Christians and in us if we are willing ! #abetterFaith